thanksgiving eve

tonight the clouds walk the earth
enveloping us in deceptive blankets
we are blind to the truth
to our destination

i wonder how this will all end.

are you in the same place as me?
i never meant to hurt you
but i need to be treated like i'm a good human being.

indecisive

watch this leaning tower of feelings quickly tumble.

i jump in with eyes closed
and will probably leave permanently blind in one eye or both.

you may be my demise but you're currently the best thing that's happened to me in awhile.
you see the parts that he has so often destroyed
and you aim to bring them to life

i feel amused
yet befuddled

my heart sings and cries at the same time.


this is the anatomy of a scarlet letter.

on the radio

why is it that every song about heartbreak makes me think that it's about me?

nostalgic for disaster

i'm not one for taking on addictions...
but swallowing the blues has seemed so appealing lately

...doesn't that just scream desperation?
a wasted life?
perhaps.

our failures make us recognize purpose
but not necessarily how to obtain it for ourselves.
and sometimes we yearn for tragedy, just so we have a good story


btw, is there rehab for heartbreakers?

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hum hallelujah.

i'm in the business of misery.....

this really has to be the most pointless situation.

do you really not notice or are you purposely trying to make me the bad guy?

i just want to feel something lively, purposeful, and worthwhile in my life.