Letting it all play out

I know exactly how this is going to go.

We hook up.
I feel good for awhile
Then you tell me you're going back to her.

I don't want to go back there
back to Thanksgiving 2006
When you told me you didn't want me to come
That you fell for someone else.

I took you back once and I doubt I can do it again.
You keep pushing this
and I'm the only one that's going to get hurt.

I know two people who know how to handle me.
You're one of them.
I know you're an asshole
I know your games
But you know how to deal with everything I have (for the most part)

Why can't you just be freaking normal?

Fever Dreams

I dreamt about a cat causing a raucous in my room.

To see a cat in your dream, signifies much misfortune, treachery, and bad luck. However, for the cat lover, cats signifies an independent spirit, feminine sexuality, creativity, and power. If the cat is aggressive, then it suggests that you are having problems with the feminine aspect of yourself.

To dream that you chase the cat away, signifies that you will overcome your obstacles.

I know it was you Joe.
And I know that I'm having a battle with myself.
Why can't this all work itself out?

Really now...

Seriously Joe,

Grow the fuck up.

Honestly.

I can't stand these little mind games.

You're bored with me already huh?

Funny how YOU can be bored with ANYONE

when you NEVER leave the house.

You don't have a job.

You apparently can't drive.

You don't even have a hobby.

You've given up on doing the things you love.

Yet, everything around YOU is BORING?

Shame on me for letting my concerns go deeper than a few weeks.

You pushed it.

You gushed and shared your feelings.

OH, AND I'M SINGLE BY THE WAY.

Isn't this what you suggested at least three times a week?

and now what?

You won't even fucking talk to me.

WHAT A SHOCK.

Fuck off.

Now.

kaygreat.

Don't Waste Your Time On Me...

You're already the voice inside my head.

This is the only place where I can openly admit that I miss you.

I totally fucked up.

I wanted to make you mad because you frustrate me.

Please just say something.

I regret it all.