to be or not to be....entertained

the worst thing you can do to a gemini is bore her.

we need:

humor
attention
converstation
enthusiasm
confidence
adventure
kindness
sincerity
appreciation
a challenge
love

if you can't provide us with almost all of those things,
then consider yourself in danger of being pushed aside or replaced.

it may be harsh words
but if our brain isn't constantly being raked,
then we're out of our minds.

we are flirtatious socialites,
please, support the cause.

on the radio....

so what does it mean
when the love songs i hear
no longer remind me of you?

they only make me think of something that i one day hope to find....

seeking safe landing on sharp objects

...it'll just break your back
and not your fall.
watch out for what glitters--it may just be fool's gold.

a watched pot never boils
and a held phone never rings

i hate goodbyes but i'd rather it be me first on the other line
kinda feels like the upperhand.

cmj this weekend
reminds me of last year's memories.

so it shall be the anniversary
of events that i have yet to recover from.

let's move on soon*

meet me in montauk

sometimes i ponder the events of our reunion.
maybe something ridiculous like almost getting into a car crash with each other, just to realize it's you and me.
or maybe wondering into your farm in the rain and you're there waiting.


i want someone who appreciates me
who is proud to be with me
be a bragger
post my picture
say your heart belongs to me and only me

i want that 16-year old, fairytale love
while i'm young please.

you were always on my mind

ever speak of the devil and then have him appear at your doorstep?
ever think you see someone 3x over and then have them appear by the 4th glance?
i guess we all are a little mad with hope.

we want to create magic and miracles
for the sake of love and happiness.

our perfect world, on our terms.....

dumbfounded

lately life has taken a really interesting, and poor turn for me.

my mom dropped a bunch of serious and disappointing news regarding her marital status.
i choose not to go into details nor do i care to acknowledge or accept her claims in any fashion.
my parents have been married for 22 years...ups and downs but mostly happy.
i refuse to see it all go down the drain NOW.
and further...if she is just NOW seeing issues with our family business that have been quite apparent for the past 5 years...then maybe she deserves to blame herself...
i've tried pointing these things out for quite some time now but she was in denial about everything.


now onto other pressing matters.

so a certain band has stayed with my on 2 occasions.
the most recent being in august.
one member i have kept in contact with on and off for the past 8 months or so.
the last time he stayed, he's put forth obvious flirtations and suggestions
(IE: "come make love to me in the van"
i have the texts to prove it)
and i even agreed to be his "cuddle buddy" for a night.
(nothing happened besides serious spooning)
today, thanks to the wonders of the internet
i found out that he's a DAD.

wow.
i feel really awkward.

and what's even more interesting....
i don't think that it's his girlfriend's.

what is with the company i keep?