dumbfounded

lately life has taken a really interesting, and poor turn for me.

my mom dropped a bunch of serious and disappointing news regarding her marital status.
i choose not to go into details nor do i care to acknowledge or accept her claims in any fashion.
my parents have been married for 22 years...ups and downs but mostly happy.
i refuse to see it all go down the drain NOW.
and further...if she is just NOW seeing issues with our family business that have been quite apparent for the past 5 years...then maybe she deserves to blame herself...
i've tried pointing these things out for quite some time now but she was in denial about everything.


now onto other pressing matters.

so a certain band has stayed with my on 2 occasions.
the most recent being in august.
one member i have kept in contact with on and off for the past 8 months or so.
the last time he stayed, he's put forth obvious flirtations and suggestions
(IE: "come make love to me in the van"
i have the texts to prove it)
and i even agreed to be his "cuddle buddy" for a night.
(nothing happened besides serious spooning)
today, thanks to the wonders of the internet
i found out that he's a DAD.

wow.
i feel really awkward.

and what's even more interesting....
i don't think that it's his girlfriend's.

what is with the company i keep?