between the heart and the synapse

honestly,
at times i feel like the unhappiest person on earth.

i want to be alone
i want to be alone
i want to be alone

free from the shackles of current and possible love
i want to be unloved.

im either starving for attention or running from its grasp
who am i really?

i'd rather be free from chains of expectations
to be able to answer to no one
"do as i please"

ill probably blame you for all of this
because when it comes down to it
i doubt that there are enough male hearts on earth for me to break
to relinquish what you did to me

i AM the car crash heart